2018 entries (pt. 1)

now i see that i never did guard my own heart

i focused and fought for something that left me torn apart

little me with high hopes and big dreams

ignoring the truth of how this all seems

i might be in love with the idea that is you

knowing you are unconcerned with the things i do

over and over i put it all out there

fighting a battle that was never fair

now it seems to have ended and looks to be over

i never gave up, just holding truth a lot closer

because trust and promises — those can be broken

but love still stands, only because it was once woken

honestly i’m still figuring that out

i’ll wait my turn, even through this doubt

i know there is much to do and much to grow

that’s why my head is held high, when i feel low

my heart and my mind strive to remain secure

but this was an unprotected love, that’s for sure

for when it was still blurry, i snapped the shot

then held on with no second thought

now i accept the truth and grip to the lesson learned

with little regret i know love doesn't always have to be earned